Something funny happened when I turned 30....

I am sitting here at my computer cracking up. In every sense of the phrase. I.am.cracking.up. I am thinking about where to begin this post and my mind is like a 5 year old with ADD and an extreme case of "shiny ball syndrome." I am having a hard time narrowing it down. I wrote a few things, deleted them, started over, and now here I go...

I am a pretty "traditional" girl. I like for men to initiate moves, conversations, etc. I think the past two months I have really been evaluating what I want and if I am or was truly ready to be in a relationship. Let's face it, I was single for the first time at 28 years old. Dating was about as foreign as it comes. "I don't want to be clingy." "I don't want to ask too many personal questions." "I don't want to pressure him." Finally, I didn't want to project any past relationship phobias or issues on the poor soul who would be in the line of fire.  I had a list a mile long of things I didn't want to be in my pseudo relationships. It was SO negative. So, in the spirit of all that is Meredith, I made a new list. Thank YOU, Mr. Pinterest for this gem because it SO sums up what I am looking and waiting for in whomever gets saddled with the amusement park of fun that is Meredith Craig.

Yeah, yeah. It's a little "cupcakes and rainbows" and true love is anything BUT that vision. I have realized something sad but at the same time pretty damn exciting. I have yet to be in real love with someone. The kind of love that drives you crazy, they write songs and movies about, and makes you believe in something you just can't put your finger on. Yes, I have been in a 17 year old version of that or infatuation but not that deep and intense love. I also realized. I am ready. I am willing. I am capable and MOST importantly. I deserve it. Which leads me to 30...

Ladies and Gentlemen.. Sister got balls when she turned 30. I am branching out, not holding back, initiating it, embracing it, throwing it to the curb if it sucks, and not paying it any more mind if it's in the past. I am excited for the journey and taking you all along for the wild (Oh, this I am certain) ride. 

Happy Labor Day Lovers.

xoxo-Mere