Not taking it home...

I have been teaching for 20 days. I find it slightly hilarious that I still get a strange feeling inside when I hear "Ms. Mooney." Even if it's 432 times a day (the average). I really feel like I am doing all the things that new Teachers do... You know, sit in my room for 10 or so minutes after the end of the day and wonder if you have ruined the children? Or compare myself to others and feel like a miserable failure. Yes, it is riveting. I am a stream of constant over-thinking but it is what we do in this Profession. We are thinkers, researchers, nurturers, and life long learners. It comes with the territory.

I have had some pretty intense conversations this week with some of my favorite people about the good, the bad, and the ugly in my life these days. I have so much to be excited about and thankful for and there is really only 1 or 2 areas in my life that need to be "dealt" with appropriately. The issue comes into play of when the hell am I going to take care of such items? I am working my behind off and between Teaching and Photos, life is passing me by at a rate I cannot even comprehend. My Dad told me something recently that made me think. He spoke about my tenaciousness and "never quit" attitude. He said he was just in awe of me and what I am doing in my life. It is nice to hear those things and not leave much for your Parents to worry about.. Until he said, "You need to start having more fun."

Fun? Fun is a relative term. I am a fun girl. Just ask my friends. Wait.. I haven't seen or hung out with a lot of my friends in a few weeks. The 13 hour work days followed by 3-4 hours of work at home are going to catch up to me so I set some boundaries this week. I decided to leave after the bell 2 whole days this week! :) (I may or may not have left at 7:30 tonight) but still... It's progress!! I am "not taking it home" any longer. I love my students like they were my own but at the end of the day, they go home, and now so will I, without a fight.

I feel a shift in me coming and I know I have spoke about this before but I really do have this feeling something is about to change. I can't put my finger on it but I think I am about to find some well deserved and long awaited security. It really couldn't come at a better time in my life as I start the process of going back out on my own.  Sitting at drinks with my lovely BFF, Jamie. I told her that it was funny how we were both blissfully happy in two completely different areas of our lives and how I almost wished we could gel my Professional blessings and her Personal into one superhumanamazeballslady. How.cool.would.that.be??

Okay, I am off to not think about school. Psh. Right. ;)

Have a wonderful day, week, whatever.

xoxo-mere