Yes, even I get scared. I feel like I put out this tough and rough girl exterior to those around me so that they do not worry or think they have to help me through whatever it is I am struggling with in the moment. I feel like I have worked so hard (I cannot even put it into words) to just move forward. Two long years have felt more like ten in many ways. I am at a strange point in my life as the "transition" is coming to a head.
The "For Sale" sign is coming this week. Thank GOD! I cannot begin to tell you how extremely ready I am to be rid and I mean RID of that house. I am ready to close the chapter for good and really move on. As much as I am ready for this, I cannot lie and say it is a clean break. I have been thinking a lot about the "civility" that has been going on between myself and the "other party". I cannot even wrap my mind around it because... truth be told... I am still kinda pissed off. I don't like confrontation, I don't want to argue, fight, yell, but I never, ever, did. I never had that opportunity to just break down.
I feel like I do this a lot. I don't want to rock the boat. I just keep it in and you know what? Surprisingly.. *sigh* I just don't care. I am exhausted with it all. Emotionally exhausted. So, I just move forward. Every part of me is just ready to break away and collect what's left of my pride and credit and start over.. again. Yes, I am scared but judging on how well I have done so far, I am keeping the faith. ;)
I am just ready? You know? In every sense of the word. I am ready to reap the benefits of my hard work. I can feel it coming and I am welcoming it and not looking back. :)
This post is sponsored by disheveled and jumbled. Goodnight!
xoxo-mere
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