365 days.

I cannot believe the year I have had. 30 was the BEST year of my life and I am in awe of how different my life is today, at 31. I have been stressed about some things recently and I was talking (freaking out) to my Mom and she said something to me that hit me like nothing she's ever said to me before. She basically said I get everything I want. I work hard and everything I have set my mind to happen, happens. It's true.

I have a career that a year ago was a mystery. I didn't know what my first year of teaching had in store for me but as I sat in my classroom on the 2nd day of school this year, it was so strange. I had everything together, my lessons went smoothly, my kids left happy. Holy cow, maybe I do know what I am doing??!! (You probably should not have asked me that yesterday lol) My team and I get along so well. We are really doing a great job and I am coming into my own as a Teacher. The career I should have been doing all along. I am finally doing it and doing it well.

I am 205 days away from marrying the best guy in the world. Yes, the girl who said what she wanted "didn't exist" just got beach engagement photos in the mail and I squealed like a school girl. I am so incredibly excited I might just burst. Making the choice to date someone after being SO jaded wasn't easy. I had to be pushed to my uncomfortable zone, reminded that what wasn't "normal" is, indeed, normal, and having someone love you despite your faults is the best feeling in the world. Lord knows I have many faults.

I am going to be moving (hopefully VERY soon) into a beautiful home that we will make our own. A home that has amazing memories and had examples of what love really is in it. It makes me daydream picking out paint colors, deciding what pictures to frame, and how I tried to convince Jason to not mount the TV over the fireplace. (I gave in, it was his only want and actually, it will look great)

Life is so incredibly good. Stress about the wedding, housing, and balancing life is just petty. Life is a pretty resilient thing. It works out.

I am feeling thankful, loved, loving, excited, anxious (in a good way), and ready!

Have a great week and thank you for the birthday wishes. It was an awesome night filled with my boo, friends, family, laughing, incriminating photos, and alcohol. How bad could that be??!!

xoxo-mere